2019 was a year of realizations,
in the year i make 34 years,
my body it´s not the same,
my health it´s not the same,
my heart it´s not the same,
i and whatever i used to be are not the same

My son it´s on his way to this world
i am dealing between staying with my family or choosing my carrer
i will not abandon them, but move so far away it will be hard to be together.
There are few who can understand what i feel.

the work is my dream job, on my dream country, everything is perfect,
perfect for my family but they will not be coming with me,
i have lost focus because of this,
What i am going to do.

The county is Ireland,
the country is going on a housing crisys,
but at the same time, chaos is where i trive,anyway, a crisys on a first world country
sounds as a joke to a third world country like Brazil.

family, ... the thought of my family comes from the sky and hits me with both feet and trhows me accros the room. Are you going to raise your children on a forest mr captain? You are not gypsies!
An minimalist house won´t do it.

Apart from that i will loose so much of the early years of my son...

But what i am going to win? An European passport? So i could go to Europe or States without a problem?